I was speaking with a friend Tuesday – this was the first time I had spoken with her since the death of my daughter, JoAnna. I had just finished going through boxes of JoAnna’s belongings which she had stored at our house, so I was a bit tender from doing that.
During our conversation, my friend asked me a valid question which I will share some of here. (I am paraphrasing, as well as going into a more lengthy answer here.)
She asked about a metaphysical-oriented person (such as myself) and how the loss of a loved one (aka grief) hit us. In essence, because I can talk with those on the other side, and am a human, how did grief hit me?
I related to her about how JoAnna and I had been in contact up until the day before the wake her friends held for her (scheduled May 3rd – 13 days after her death) – and that I would cry every time I felt her presence near me or when she talked to me.
On May 1st, I sat down and told JoAnna that she needed to go back into the Light for a while – it was still too painful for me. I then told her that after I had time to heal, she was welcome to come back.
She gently pulled her energy from me.
On May 2nd, JoAnna popped back in. Smiling, she bowed to me, giggled and said, “Watch!”
In typical mischievous JoAnna-style, she put on a mini-theatrical production for me.
She showed the Light coming down; her friends from the other side appearing from within the Light.
A guardian Angel appeared beside JoAnna, and both – light-heartedly – walked towards the Light. JoAnna kept looking back at me, smiling.
She entered the Light – high-fiving her friends – and then turned back to me. The guardian Angel had moved beside JoAnna. Opened double doors appeared; the guardian Angel pulled one door closed and JoAnna began pulling her door closed.
As JoAnna’s door was almost closed, she swung it open a little wider, stuck out her hand and energetically waved; she bowed, and shut the door.
I laughed.
Her message was, “See? I’m giving you closure!”
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I have cried, and tears still spontaneously spring forth – even as I write this.
I am a physical being. I mourn the physical loss of my daughter, who was also my friend. I miss her physical presence.
Yes, metaphysicians grieve.
I do want each of you to know that even if you can’t hear or sense your deceased loved ones yet – they can, and do, hear you.
Your prayers for your loved ones are heard and appreciated by them – as is when you talk to them.
And please know that when you are going “Home”, they will be there to greet you.
In Love and Light, Jan.
May 27, 2009
by Jan Toomer
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