(I am not a medical or mental health professional. I am sharing my experiences and my interpretation of my experiences, both physical and metaphysical. My experiences and results are not typical and are unique to me.)
Mystery Remains
But I still had a mystery on my hands.
Three days later I was to meet with the local Brainwave Techs* for an assessment.
The morning of my appointment, as I was brushing my hair, everything fell into place. The path was cleared all the way back to the root…the triggering moment.
I totally had a *duh* moment as it all came together.
The plane incident was early April, and all heck broke loose after that.
Cause and effect.
Fear and anger.
I thought I had resolved the trauma.
I was wrong.
My body and physical words had been trying to get me to pay attention – trying to guide me to help. For example, outside was when I would have severe allergy reactions. So somewhere in my brain, it decided that inside=safety while outside=not safe.
I called hubby, “I had an epiphany!”
“Eww…did you clean it up?’
Yeah, we’re like that.
I explained. He said it made perfect sense.
Moving Forward
During my assessment (mapping session) I saw my team (guides) standing nearby. They – repeatedly – reminded me to stay in body during the mapping. In a show of support, they stayed with me but did not interact or interfere.
My assessment showed that my brain had once again reversed. For me it meant unable to stay asleep at night (my brain took that as night time to be the time to be active) and dragging butt during the day (when my brain decided it should be sleeping). It also meant that them memory and others issues where probably because of the reversal.
We scheduled sessions for me. One session = approx. 1.5 hours comprised of several individual protocols.
Day One
I was going to have two sessions on Day One; one in the morning and one after lunch.
I arrived foggy brained and felt beyond exhausted leaving my body feeling leaded.
An hour and a half later, my body was still tired from the sleep deprivation, but I was mentally alert.
During the lunch break, I opened my vanity mirror on my truck and looked at myself. I saw me! I felt my being was once again present in my eyes.
After the afternoon session, I felt relaxed and alert.
Somewhere in the two sessions, one of the protocols I was asked to think about happiness and joy – what makes me happy and joyous?
I visualized many ideas: photography, friends, animals, water, reading, writing, etc. They were all nice, and they do make me happy, but it still wasn’t THE one thought.
Frustrated, I mentally yelled for my husband. I saw him standing before me (in my mind) and I told him, “I’m frustrated. I need a hug.” As he pulled me into a hug, everything inside of me settled.
I love the movie “Hook” (Robin Williams plays the adult Peter Pan) – and one of my favorite scenes is when Peter proclaims his happy thought (which is needed in order to fly) was his son.
And I found mine – my husband.
Day Two
The night was not the same as it had been. I tossed and turned for a few hours…then woke up 2 ½ hours later. I was drenched in sweat. Again, not like me, I also had a nightmare.
What happened in the dream and the unknown woman in the dream were not important (meaning they were merely props used to get a message across). What did matter was the message of the dream.
My brain had been working to not only “right” itself, but was relaying a message to me as well.
In the dream I had been in a situation that was beyond my control, and felt alone and hard pressed to help with the situation when my husband walked out of the shadows. He helped me – I wasn’t alone. Translation – even though I experienced the airplane incident by myself (it was a situation that was out of my control), I wasn’t alone in getting help or healing in my life.
One of the protocols for this day was one to ‘release’. In 2008, my mental visualization was very vivid and poignant – with large bubbles, which contained scenes from my life, lifting up and leaving me.
This time, I saw red bubbles in the background. They were small, and I wasn’t able to see inside of them…which I knew was okay. I was curious about the red color, and realized is was my symbolism for irritation or inflammation. This could include the allergy overloads I had been experiencing as well…and I said good riddance to them.
Day Three – My final day of sessions.
I did not sleep last night.
I arrived for my morning session feeling beyond exhausted, and I looked the part.
After the first two protocols, I began to feel clear headed again. I was physically tired but not drained or groggy. I was mentally active. I finished my session feeling rejuvenated and calm.
I was informed that the sessions will continue to work on settling in me for about two weeks.
Day Four
Day one after completing my sessions.
I am not sure when I feel asleep after midnight, but I did. I awoke clear-eyed. My body was still physically tired, but I attributed that to three months of sleep deprivation. Don’t get me wrong, last night’s sleep was awesome and I look forward to many more.
I did well until after lunch and then I began to feel worn out. I was tired – but not foggy brained – and felt as though I had spent the morning hiking in the heat.
I spent the rest of the afternoon reading, writing and drinking lots of water.
Day Five
Two days after final session.
I feel asleep last night at my pre-April normal time and awoke at my pre-April normal time. I had slept all night!
My body also felt less worn out.
I anticipate being back into full swing from this point on. *grin*
Thank You!
* For other Brain State Technologies locations, visit BST’s website.
by Jan Toomer
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